Saturday, October 29, 2005
started the day with mass then the concert.my butt hurts when we stand okay..sat in the hall for around 2hrs la..went back to class to get our report book and stuff.after that, miss mak gave presents to those who improve the most in various subject.then the saddening part.she took boxes of candle holders out,took one candle holder out and said:"the reason why i'm giving you this is because...(stopped for awhile to wipe tears)is because..(stop to wipe tears again and we all cried)i'm leaving the school..i knew that i was leaving in june and so i tried not to be too close to you all cause i dont want you to feel sad..i kept scolding you all because if i dont,i cant do it next year..."as she talked,anissa,xuanya,jiarui and i cried...we didn't wanted to but after we know why she scolded us and stuff then we cried..aahh sadddening..i've never cried so much in school before..it hurt my eyes okay..and besides i never thought i will cry for my teachers.maybe it's because she's been my form teacher for 2 years so teacher-student relationship develops..i dont know la...oh well...and someone told me smth which made me cry even more..but i'm glad it's alright now..hahas.i've got not much mood to say much..
2:42 PM
Saturday, October 22, 2005
i cried,i cut but the pain never went away..you'll never know how much pain i'm going through..neither will you want to know..the feeling suck.i promise myself to start anew but i could not live up to MY promise..what an idiot..i'm at a lost of what to do now and nobody understand me.NO ONE will ever know what i'm going through..NO ONE will ever understand me.why the hell am i still doing here?in this bloody fucking place with not even a single soul who understand me.rarr-
i'm not feeling really well..my headache is getting worse after the fever was gone yesterday.everyone seem to be pissing me off.everything seem to make me cry.yes i want to cry.cry it all out but before i do that i always think it's stupid.like dumb to waste my precious tears over stupid things.i dont know what to do now..i stone at home and start thinking of stupid things..okay chelsy stop it..vent your anger here/now!
I HATE THE WAY THINGS ARE NOW!!tons of reason to that..one of it is that i made a WRONG choice that changed me.argh :/
I HATE MYSELF
12:36 PM
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
had bbq today..was fun okay..jiarui and xuanya came arnd 12 and we went to jelita to get the stuff..was super funny larh..we totally malu ourselves larh..then we took cab back to my place and the driver cant drive!!!i was like moving here and there and banging on the xuanya and jiarui..gosh..we talk and talk and talk after WE marinated the chicken wing..so funny..then we stonned till 4.we went down to get things ready.mich,karuna,siling and adeline came..we started cooking and took lots of pictures..karuna wanted to get vodka so i walk to the mini-mart with them..the uncle stopped us okay..wtf la..walk there for nothing okay..so we walked back..after a while,it rain..bad day..hurhur.jiarui and karuna kept playing with chester..esp jiarui..hahas so we eat and eat and eat till yimei came..she also eat as we still eat..then they wanted to play water as karuna was like all wet larh..yupp but the stupid guard was still there..so could not..played truth or dare and i kana alot of times okay..like 4 i think and stupid yimei!!!made me say such things out!!!rarr..played awhile more then they all had to leave..only yimei,jiarui came up to my place..walk yimei down when her dad came and it was super scary okay..like so dark and quiet..jiarui stayed at my place till 1115..went down with her and her daddy got lost..took him awhile before he could find the place..hahas..okay another one coming tml!!!hurhur..with my primary school mates..okay i'm tired now..going to sleep.
3:15 PM
Sunday, October 16, 2005
exams are over!!!whee-birth.year=1979
12:24 PM
exams are over!!!whee-like finally..have been waiting for this day okay.but i dont want to get results larh..i screw up my geog paper!!!i dont know how to do the map thingy leh..hmpt-but it's over already..i'm going to play for now.bbq on tue!!yay!hahas.
may be going out on wed.cause i could not make it on friday as i gotta visit mr doctor bacause my dear knee is crying everytime i walk...sigh.he told me i pulled my muscle cause i over worked it..he guessed as much that i've not been playing tennis or awhile then i suddenly play real hard so there goes a pull in one of my muscle..till the report is out,i'm not suppose to exercise?but no way okay..i'm growing super fat..maybe when my cousin comes tml,i'll play a game or two with her..yupps.i'll just ignore what he says till the report is out.oh well,my little nephew came over.he was suppose to SWIM but he ended up PLAYING water for chester..hurhur.they are like the same age can but chester looks bigger then him or instead,he looks smaller then chester larh..but he does not talk much leh..and the way he kick the ball is like super gentle okay..gosh.but he's cute!!really..aahh okay i've got nothing much to say for now...
you shld let me love you,
let me be the one who
gives you everything you want
and need.
12:24 PM
exams are over!!!whee-like finally..have been waiting for this day okay.but i dont want to get results larh..i screw up my geog paper!!!i dont know how to do the map thingy leh..hmpt-but it's over already..i'm going to play for now.bbq on tue!!yay!hahas.
may be going out on wed.cause i could not make it on friday as i gotta visit mr doctor bacause my dear knee is crying everytime i walk...sigh.he told me i pulled my muscle cause i over worked it..he guessed as much that i've not been playing tennis or awhile then i suddenly play real hard so there goes a pull in one of my muscle..till the report is out,i'm not suppose to exercise?but no way okay..i'm growing super fat..maybe when my cousin comes tml,i'll play a game or two with her..yupps.i'll just ignore what he says till the report is out.oh well,my little nephew came over.he was suppose to SWIM but he ended up PLAYING water for chester..hurhur.they are like the same age can but chester looks bigger then him or instead,he looks smaller then chester larh..but he does not talk much leh..and the way he kick the ball is like super gentle okay..gosh.but he's cute!!really..aahh okay i've got nothing much to say for now...
you shld let me love you,
let me be the one who
gives you everything you want
and need.
12:24 PM
Sunday, October 09, 2005
i just realise how fragile life is..
unexpected things may happen
say/do whatever you wish to before it's all too late
chinese paper on tue was alright..i UNDERSTAND the compre part ok..like finally.and i know how to answer the question la..hahas i'm proud of myself okay..math paper 2 was not what i expected..the paper was rather ok just that i forgot the formula[sp?]then i counted my marks la.like only 38.so depressing okay..i'm going for math tuition later.i must focus later!!!i've been a good girl lately..going home straight after school with bestie..she makes me run all the way to the bus stop that makes me look like an idiot..hurhur..i think drawing the reproductive system is real cool..i think its fun la..esp the male one..so funny..the female one looks kinda weird ok..i've been drawing alot for science..hahas.yupp i'm lazy to type and i'm hungry,hungry,hungry.hungry,hungry,hungry.hungry,hungry,hungry,hungry,hungry,hungry,hungry,hungry,hungry,hungry
the fact that i never really let you go.
12:47 AM
Saturday, October 01, 2005
DADDY BOUGHT ME IPOD NANO!!!
like super cool..he always says no whenever i ask for it.and this time he bought it for me w/o me asking..i think there's smth wrong with him..but who cares la..hahas..ok exams..tue chinese and friday math 2..have not really started on my chinese yet but i'm doing tons of math question cause i have to beat some people in class..hmpt.
have been saying in school lately this week..and i've been eating ice-cream with dear bestie!!yumyum.and i heard things that SOMEONE said about me. like"i accuse her of...." "because i accuse her,she and someone are not talking" she also does not know why i hate her..i simply hate her to the core..because of her,everything is in a mess.she is making her class hate this particular girl BECAUSE she wants the whole class to like her when everyone hates her..such a bitch please..gosh..
ok i shan't spoil my mood..for now i'll leave this place and continue gettng music!!tata
1:49 PM